Something like a phenomeblog...

Well...so much going on in my head. Kinda don't know where to start. Won't tell everything, like you all would really be able to handle me. SMH. I'm sorta sumthing like a big deal. Yea I said it. I really am. Ima big deal to me, and Ima big deal to certain ones that I know can handle my "suchabigdealedness". Not everyone can, so not everyone gets in on the picture.

Now, to some, that might come off as me being "fake" or not all the way "real" (which, by the way, gets on my ever loving last nerve, i thought we were done with the era of "keeping it real"). But who cares. I'm forever and always me. Unapologetic, I am me. Every quirk, idiosyncrasy, mannerism, eccentricity and characteristic of me is genuine.

So let's see whats going on in my head...well, the things I'll let you in on:

1. Love-Love is the single, strongest feeling anyone could feel. There are not different types of love, just different types of relationships. (you love your kids, parents, s/o, friends, but it all is love) Love isn't always reciprocated, unfortunately. But still isn't diminished when it isn't returned. In order for it to be love, it has to be real. No such thing as fake love, or a little love. It's just love. If you try to diminish it then it's just emotion. If you are not willing to sacrifice yourself if you have to for the one you say you love, then it's not love. Being in love is just a description of a commitment to a person. You have to be careful when using that terminology. You could damage someone if you are not truly in love with them but you say that you are. There's nothing wrong with telling someone i love you, if you mean it. But to say that you are in love with someone signifies a soul/spirit connection that isn't easily broken. If it doesn't work and tears apart, it rips the very fiber of a person and is painful. Love doesn't hurt, people do. Love doesn't lie, people do. i like how my dude put love...


2. Religion-church folk are too up tight....HEY, I just had an epiphany. I keep confusing "church folk" with "saved folk". There is such a difference. Ok, that explains the up-tightness! Everybody who goes to church isn't saved. I mean there are folk that go religiously (pun intended) but don't know Jesus from a hill of beans. And they are UPTIGHT. Sit around and call everyone out on their mess sans prayer, encouragement, and most of all LOVE (see #1). Religion is MAN MADE (religion - a specific fundamental set of beliefs and practices generally agreed upon by a number of persons or sects: the Christian religion; the Buddhist religion. ). And that my friends is the problem. Now, there is such a thing as true religion, and having a set of beliefs that people agree on is not wrong at all. But is it guided by God or the fallible human mind? The Bible says: "If you think you are being religious, but can't control your tongue, you are fooling yourself, and everything you do is useless. Religion that pleases God the Father must be pure and spotless. You must help needy orphans and widows and not let this world make you evil." James 1:26-27 (Contemporary English Version) Oh My Jesus...that's deep. *lookin down to see if i stepped on any toes, including mine*



3. Career/school - very simple...I have a vision...need to enact it...pray for me. I'm spozed 2 b rich!!!!!! I have a friend who inspired me recently. Just her determination and the actions she is taking made me wake up and go "what are you doing AQUON???? you ain't doin nuffin, get on the ball!!!" Thank you my sweet friend!


4. BFF-smh....omg....i #lovehateher (lol @kennyknight). Me & her go back since like 1995. My cuz tried to "hook us up" but like immediately we were destined to be best friends. Been through a lot with her. Several times I have wanted to harm her a la some crazy WWE finishing move like this:

...But I haven't....yet....maybe 2010 will give me the opportunity. My BFF is funny, loving, kind, sweet, and has a severe terminal case of road rage. I hope her goatee grows completely in, and she'll let me shape it up for her.

5. Speaking of shape-ups - I want these:

That's all for now...until next time...peace!

Music & Me...the one thing I own.

People who know me very well know that I feel like the only thing I really own outright in this world is music. It's not just about singing....it's MUSIC, period! Music is the one thing that I control and it listens to me and never does something that I don't advise or direct. It's totally under my control. I OWN music. No one can take it from me and nothing could ever stop the music in me. Even when I lose my voice, there's a melody playing in my heart/mind continually.



I know, for me at least, music is a gift from God and so it's the one thing that I can freely give back to him, without wondering if He will accept it. Because no matter how I'm feeling, when I sing to Jesus, IT'S ALWAYS SINCERE. I can't fake a love song to my savior. Even when I know I've fallen short and haven't pleased him, when I send up an offering, a song of repentance, a song of Love, a song of His Glory, he hears it, receives it and smiles. He forgives me, loves me, and tells me "it's gonna be ok. I'm with you."



In high school, they used to call me "radio"...long before the Cuba Gooding Jr. movie. Lol. I know a song for everything, any occaision. I can be in a normal conversation and all of my responses could be song titles, phrases, lines....music....love it! Even now, my mind is so musical that I'll be walking along and my brain will just play a song to correspond with the beat of my steps. (yes, i walk IN BEAT, successive steps, in syncopation, and time)



*side bar-someone on the floor here @ work just sang the "yaaaeee yaaaeee, yaaaeee yaaee yaee yeah" part from "DA BUTT" by EU* (back to ya regularly scheduled blog)



I was walking to the Lightrail one morning and of course, my steps were in beat. All of a sudden in my mind and unmistakable beat starts to play...the music drops...baseline, keys, guitar, strings, drums, tambourine...and then the lyrics



Well, you can tell by the way I use my walk,

I'm a woman's man, no time to talk.

Music loud and women warm.

I've been kicked around since I was born.

And now it's all right, it's O.K.

And you may look the other way.

We can try to understand

The New York Times' effect on man.

Whether you're a brother

Or whether you're a mother,

You're stayin' alive, stayin' alive.

Feel the city breakin'

And ev'rybody shakin'

And we're stayin' alive, stayin' alive.

Ah, ha, ha, ha,Stayin' alive.

Stayin' alive.

Ah, ha, ha, ha,Stayin' alive.



All I could do was crack up laughing....but hey, IT'S MUSIC and it's MINE. Everyone knows I love gospel music, that's a given. I love a GOOD love song also...nice lyrics, nice music, nice sentiment...i'm sold....here are a few of my fav love songs. Of course I'm gonna blog more about music, so you'll be turned on to more of my tastes as time goes on.

NOTHING EVEN MATTERS - Lauryn Hill & D'Angelo
"Now the skies could fall, Not even if my boss should call, The world it seems so very small. 'Cause nothing even matters at all"
(ever been in love and all you wanna do is be with/think about that person...whewwwwww)

NOTHING HAS EVER FELT LIKE THIS - Rachelle Ferrell & Will Downing
"Nothing has ever felt,quite like this Oh No. Nothing has ever meant the whoooooole world to me. Nothing has ever been this good.Nothing has ever been this right. Nothing so sweet, In my life..."
(Rachelle Ferrell...nuff said)

ALWAYS ON MY MIND - SWV & Brian Alexander Morgan
"Sometimes, I find it hard to concentrate Because thoughts of us together fill my head. When you're away, it's hard to sleep at night, So, my pillow, like my thoughts of you, I hold tight"
(a little "bubble gum-ish" but c'mon...who hasn't felt this way in love?)

Until next time...Q